This is a rather old post but for my personal growth I have to do it. Last week I had a really tough day, one of those that no one wants to experience.
I’ve been controlling my eating habits really well, even to the point that I know how useless snacking can be sometimes. I’m serious, we don’t always have to pop food into our mouths just because. So one thing I experiment with (learnt from Deepak Chopra) is to put my hand on my stomach and say, how hungry am I? Is this hunger or thirst? Is this huger attached to something that occurred or is it real? This easy technique has helped me a lot so far. I’d say I follow this 97% of the time, especially weekdays when I’m at home.
So let me take this minute to praise myself, I’ve come a long way when it comes to emotional eating, the fact that I can consciously admit the uselessness of some food items when I’m in a good mood is great evidence to me. And just like I stopped adding the sugar in my coffee, on a random day, so too I will stop the unnecessary snacking. It will come.
Back to the binge day, I didn’t know how to control my emotions. I decided between getting out of the house (which could lead to all sorts of temptations), and taking the 2 potatoes and roasting them in the oven. While I was sitting and contemplating what to do, I was munching on my students small sweet rice cake snacks, let’s say 5 of those. Mhm mmm.
And here they are,
Looks delicious right? It wazzzzz! First I boiled them, then peeled, sprinkled some coconut oil, herbs & straight into the oven. (Gotta love my toaster oven). I didn’t have to eat all that potatoes but I did. Slowly, elegantly and sipping my last glass of red. While I was eating I calmly said, ‘you know this is too much’ and then came that motherly voice, ‘make sure you finish your food! Don’t waste’. Now as I’m writing this, I’m like damn! That mother voice always popping out trying to kill my buzz. Next time I’m going to kill it!
Anyway, this is what I know:
1. Bad experiences can arise;
2. Don’t just act, try to place yourself in a calm space, then make your decision;
3. F……. cry it out! Just let it out;
4. Eventually you have to turn to someone and vent a little, choose your dialogue carefully – not the full story. ( unless you’re ok with the listener);
5. Start thinking of your way forward now that you know what you know;
6. And lastly, the famous one, what will I do next time this kind of experience happens?
it’s never easy at the beginning, but along the road I’ve become better at managing myself and my situations. And……. I’m still in love with life.
Written with love,